So for some reason...I've been in a slump. And I can't quite figure out what it is. Part of me knows, and the other part doesn't. I find myself contemplating some of the most ridiculous things but then disregarding probably some of the more important ones. I would like to think that I have gotten everything back in control but I am not quite sure.
Deep down I know that there is this longing to find that one. And there are a few girls that I know that I can see being the perfect ones. But I talk myself out of it. Why? They are awesome girls but somehow I over analyze and just don't listen to God. Well I listen to God but have a hard time discerning His voice with my own. Why do I keep getting the same feelings even when I try to disregard them? Maybe that is a sign that I shouldn't put this off...maybe I should pursue. I don't know.
Part of me feels like I need to move and get away from everything that is normal and comfortable to me. I would love to move to London...get a fresh start and be able to truly get a gauge of who I am. What is my faith really depending on? I love community, would I be able to make it elsewhere? Why is there this longing to be gone and away from everything I know and love? Why do I get so excited about it and feel very little remorse about even thinking of moving away? Would I miss people...yeah I would.
I guess the biggest question is why do I not just go ahead and do it?
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