Where I need to be is here...but where here is I do not know....

I am once again sitting in my room in Zakościele and am just amazed and humbled at how good God is. Every day I seemed to be reminded at how immense God's kingdom really is and how small I am. Although I may be small and flawed God still finds favor in me...in us. Psalm 8 puts it beautifully at how great God is.

I am constantly finding myself asking the same question of God. Where do you want me to be. Each and every day I seem to be getting closer to the answer, but yet I still do not know where He wants me. I continually seem to find comfort in knowing that God is in control and I have no part in knowing what that may be. I know though that somehow my place of calling is in Europe. But I know that there are a few things that just hold me back. It's the same thing over and over again. I think of my job, my family, rent and friends but when I look at Luke 9:57-62 I often wonder if there is some sort of form of hypocrisy in my life.
Luke 9:57-62 - As they were going along the road someone said to him, "I will follow you wherever you go." And Jesus said to him, "Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head." But he said, "Lord, let me first go and bury my father." And Jesus said to him, "Leave the dead to bury their own dead. But as for you, go and proclaim the kingdom of God." Yet another said, "I will follow you, Lord, but let me first say farewell to those at my home." Jesus said to him, "No one who puts his hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God."

Am I so concerned about all the things back home to truly follow God? Am I being distracted by the material possessions that I own, just to make another excuse for not following God? I know that this is what the internship is about and how exactly this will transform my life I am not sure, but what I do know is that my comfort is in the kingdom of God and the Scriptures that have been provided. Though the missionary call is something hard to understand when you do not have it yourself, it is easy to understand once you are there. And to truly read the verse I am going to end with, is hard to take in words, but understanding and doing is much easier.


Luke 18:29-30 - And he said to them, "Truly, I say to you, there is no one who has left house or wife or brothers or parents or children, for the sake of the kingdom of God, who will not receive many times more in this time, and in the age to come eternal life."

Thoughts in a Meeting room

So I sit here in Zakosciele listening to a bunch of kiddos with their teachers. The words I do not completely understand but some I can pick up. It is funny how in a matter of a few weeks words can start to make sense and the wisdom of God can come upon me. I don't grant this wisdom on my part but on God. Sure I study it and am pushed by Dane to keep studying, but it is by the grace of God that I am able to understand.

I love that I have been blessed beyond measure to just be here, in a place where God is just moving. How I got here I do not know, but I am thankful. Not much is going on besides the fact that it is a nice relaxing day. I am hungry but that is okay because it is almost time to eat.

Just using this time to write down some thoughts...other than that nothing is happening.